I will be staying in a hotel in san antonio for the entire week. yes, it will probably be boring. but do you know what hotels mean? no access to a pantry or refrigerator or freezer...yeah hotel rooms have that little thingy full of snacks but they're SUPER expensive. i REFUSE to spend $20 on a binge. i don't care how much i want it. haha i don't even have $10 to my name right now as it is. :P AND i will have complete access to a free gym. i've been working out it my bedroom and jogging at the elementary school's itty bitty track, so being able to use an elliptical and a staircase machine and weights....it's my own sick, twisted dream come true!
and now i will tell you why i am staying there. my grandpa fell a few days ago at work, and being elderly, he went to the hospital to make sure that everything was okay. everything was...except for a shadow on his x-ray. in his head.
now it could be nothing, but it could also be something. im not religious, so i can't pray without feeling guilty. this is terrible. the most i can do is remind myself that doctors make mistakes with diagnosing things all the time, and that it could've just been a smudge on the x-ray machine.....oh god i'm worried.
i'm not going to post about my weight today, i haven't weighed myself lately.
i can't even pray..........
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