I know, I know, I did it AGAIN. I just couldn't seem to concentrate on fulfilling Ana's wishes. She only has good intentions, you know. All she wants is to make me thin and lovely, and that's all i want too. Ok, i am SORRY for being gone so long, and i am SORRY for being such a worthless fat MEH. That is what i am. a MEH. it's not an acronym for anything, just a noise to express distaste and dissatisfaction.
I have such a strange way of looking at Ana. I don't obsess or have panic attacks when confronted with food. I don't think about losing weight constantly, and i certainly don't purge...because i never have to. The way that i think is based on problem solving: What is the problem? Can I solve the problem? Yes? DO IT!!! and that's all there is to it. I know that i want and HAVE to lose weight, so i let Ana into my life. I restrict. I exercise. I drink my weight in water. I use caffeine as a laxative+energy burner. I do whatever it takes. That's all there is to it. I lie and steal and sneak, but i don't feel guilty about it. I'm numb by now. My behavior doesn't surprise me anymore.
I'll have a few tips up by tonight. Feel free to use them and add to the list!!! :D
Bye!!!
(p.s I need a catch phrase. Something to write at the end of every post. hmmmm.....)
If you don't like what i'm doing, go away. If you say that i am not an ana, then you are wrong. I have a positive attitude towards my eating disorder because i refuse to be depressed again. I was depressed and lonely from 6th grade to now, and what is the use of being skinny and lovely if there are no friends to see? nobody wants to be around someone depressing!!! I will be a happy ana. I will be more than average. I will be thin.
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